Kirk Haven

Phew...it has been a turbulent few days around these parts. I'll catch you up quickly:

Belle had a VCUG performed on Tuesday. You can look it up if you're curious, but we'll just say, it involves urethral catheterization of a fully conscious 2 year old and subsequent x-rays. We asked Aron's mom to come up and help out during the procedure as I was unable to be in the room as pregnancy and radiation exposure is dangerous.

We had an awesome time with our sweet momma, and Belle absolutely LOVED having her grandma to herself. Infact, she did NOT like that she had to share her with Aron & me. She spent the first few minutes of this morning searching the whole house looking for where Grandma snuck off to.

Everything came back negative for urinary reflux (thank you Lord!)...but we got a bit of scary news we weren't expecting. They found glucose in her urine (which is a clinical indicator of diabetes), but the doctors were confused by this as all of her other urinalysis's over the past 6 months had been negative for glucose.

They told me we would repeat the UA immediately, hoping it was just a lab error or other fluke. But if it wasn't, we would be looking at hospitalization for new onset juvenile diabetes. This scared me to death, and my heart broke for my baby.

During the early afternoon while my stomach was in knots and my heart felt as burdened as I could physically bear, Belle's young, simple faith touched me. She was quietly strapped in her car seat staring out the window as we drove, and I heard her sweet little voice begin singing,
"My God is mighty to save
My God is mighty to save
My God is mighty to save
Forever, author of salvation,
Jesus conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave."

I LOST it...sobbing, running nose. Ugly, ugly crying.

We spent most of the afternoon at church waiting on test results because I didn't want to wait alone, but finally at 3:00 pm they informed us the UA came back perfectly normal. Thank you God, Thank you God, Thank you God!

I tell you everything I had been worrying about up until this point is now trivial and not even worthy of my concern! I realized how much of my energy I spend consumed with worry and miss the blessings right in front of me.

So tonight I feel oh so grateful, but still emotionally raw from the week. Aron just got home from practice and said he & the team had a really special time of prayer and encouragement together tonight. God is reigning down His sovereignty and healing on us as a family.

I want to leave you with this song. We first heard this at the Hillsong United Concert in Chicago, and I have fallen in love with the message. Whatever pain you are enduring tonight, I pray you know that He is holding you.


Tonight we rest in Him,
ejk