Thursday, March 31, 2011

somebody pinch me

Do I really get to spend my days like this?
*(Some days I ask the same question, but instead of a dreamy happy inflection, you can find me twitching with exasperation. Raising children can make you crazy like that.)

I'll take a double shot of this every morning.

And a night cap of this to close my day.

Shhhhh...please don't tell me to enjoy it now or mention just how fast they grow.

Trust me, I know. Wasn't she just his size a few days ago?

And wasn't I his size just yesterday, sitting on that very blanket?

Pushing around that same cart, learning to walk.

You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man’s life is but a breath. Psalm 39:5

Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalm 90:12

Now, LORD, I am just learning to walk in your ways. Just wading at the shoreline of the ocean of your unsearchable love. Teach me to live well; forsaking all but you. Teach me to delight in your ways, to number my days, and to live them with utter intention and purpose. To set my eyes on You, my portion and Very Great Reward. Because when I do, all that tears at my heart, screams for my preoccupation and worry, melt in your presence. Bless us, oh Giver of every good and perfect gift, with eyes to see your blessings in the seemingly mundane; satisfy us with an abundance of You. May we not miss you, drowned out by the dazzling lights and roaring noise of our world. For you delight in the seeking, you take notice of the heart that pursues you as Treasure to be unearthed and cherished. Beat our hearts with the pulse of your Kingdom coming. It is coming. All of creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. And for the one whose name is Faithful and True to ride in on horse so white, majesty filling the earth, and establish the Kingdom that will have no end. God with us once and for all. We long for that day. But until it dawns, may your Kingdom come in us today. May we live this day - eyes wide open - heart fully alive in You.

1 comment:

j said...

I just finished reading Mary Beth Chapman's "Choosing to SEE" today. Heartwrenching, beautiful, inspiring, terribly painful to even read at times (i think i cried through the whole thing, mourning with and for this family. Waking up with it fresh on my mind, with tears stinging my eyes, and thinking about their journey all day through). But, it has inspired me to live a life of choose to SEE (as you write) "the blessings in the seemingly mundane" and to live a life with "utter intention and purpose." It has made me appreciate the mundane, (I'll take mundane over complete ripping heartache anyday), to grab hold of my babies and live in each moment cherishing all that they are and the time that the LORD is giving me with them here on this earth. All to be treasured. Oh, even the mundane, I will treasure! Your love O LORD, is indeed better than life!

Loved this post. Intentionally trying to number my days aright too.

Be blessed today my friend! And enjoy your pancake Saturday!

P.S. Love the pucker pose on your little man.